Now and Then

It's a bittersweet feeling when I look at my child and see that progression has already taken place. For a moment I wish for time to stand still so that I could enjoy her infancy. At the same time I wait anxiously for the day when she starts walking so that I can show her the world, show her art, show her imagination, show her nature, the list could go on. I soak up every minute with her seeing that time will keep on moving along as it should. I guess it is evey mothers delima to want the world for their child but at the same time have their baby remain their babiy forever. Or maybe it's just my delima. An apostle of my church said this about child rearing "If a child lives with a parent for 18 or 19 years that span is only one-fourth of a parents life. And the most formative time of all, the early years in a childs life represents less than one-tenth of a parents normal life. It is crucial to focus on our children for the short time we have them." Everyday this quote runs through my head and every time it strikes a chord within me to teasure each minute with Zoe even the sleepless nights and the crying episodes that seem to last an eternity. I was always told by my parents "You pick your battles" There are no battles to pick right now with Zoe. I'll save all of them for something worth battling for but not for crying or sleepless nights. Zoe is a great blessing to Tyler and I. What I find amazing is the immense love you feel for your child after their born. For nine months she was growing inside me, there was a bond but not like the bond that instantly occured when she was born. That I see as a miracle.